WW

Day 3 of weight watchers and i'm feeling pretty good. I love that fruits are 0 points. It's great.
i was sick of high protein through eating meat. Im back to eating yogurt and granola instead, bbq sauce, mashed potatoes....oh boy...mashed potatoes. i have missed you!

I want to lose 20 more pounds and keep them off, so this is what i'm gonna do. Once i've lost a few more pounds, i'll feel a little more comfortable exercising. With the weather getting so hot now, i'm not so motivated, so we'll see. At least counting points and eating better, i can drop 1-4 pounds a week without exercise.

I am so addicted to Law and Order SVU. I've been watching like 5 shows a day on Hulu.

I have begun gathering stuff for our 1 week long trip to Rehoboth beach! i cant wait. we are leaving next saturday morning for a full 7 days. It's a 5 bedroom condo with balconies and a pool across the street. we're like 5 blocks from the beach/boardwalk and the condo has all the amentities we could ask for. it was a lot but we (at least me) need a vacation! bad!

So, here's to the next week going by fast and us having extra money after payday next week. otherwise, VISA will be loving me.

off to middle school

Luke graduated 5th grade today. Very proud moment!
Middle school, here we come!

Oh so Tuesday

Better than Monday, not as good as humpday. I havent blogged in a while.

I've been watching my weight (bye bye sugars!), cut my hair off and am so excited for vacation.
We are going to the beach july 2-9th - rented a sweet condo in Rehoboth, which is where i went as a child. I have great memories. I'm really looking forward to it, and hoping it doesnt debt us too horribly bad!

I can't believe luke is graduation 5th grade tomorrow. Going into middle school & he'll be in a uniform too. The school put uniforms into affect which i think is great. No more crazy hair, crazy cleavage or asses hanging out of pants! Grrrreat.

Tonight is Luke's 1st playoff game. i hope they kick some butt. we beat this team 17-3 last week. Lets do it again! Sucky part is that if luke's team wins tonight, they play saturday morning at the same time as Payton's first gymnastics class :-(   I've been to every single game and will miss his championship game. sucks!!!!!

We got a court date finally. August 24th - i'm already nervous. We've been allotted 4.5 hours so it's lookng like we'll get it all taken care of that day. Once we get our full custody awarded, we'll need to iron out Holidays and stuff, but it will finally be over. I'm relieved it's a week before school starts up. A new school is stressful. The less stress, the better. 

Well, that pretty much wraps it up I think! peace ;-)

Been a while

It's been a while since I've blogged. It's too much work to think of what to write.
Today I'd like to remember the brave Military who fight for our freedom every day. 
This brave 19 year old died last night. He was a life long friend of my brother, who is also a marine.

Phila. soldier dies in Afghanistan

April 20, 2011|By Kia Gregory, INQUIRER STAFF WRITER

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John Kihm, 19, part of the Army's 10th Mountain Division infantry unit,…

It was 4 a.m. Saturday in Kandahar the last time Pfc. John Kihm talked to his mother on the phone.

Deployed to the war in Afghanistan in March, Kihm wanted her to know that he had the date for his forthcoming R&R. He would be home for 15 days, starting July 8.

He loved the Phillies, said his mother, Cecelia, on the phone Wednesday from the family's home in the Castor Gardens section of Northeast Philadelphia. So, she told him, she would try to get five tickets so the whole family could catch a ball game.

"I know they're going to win," Kihm had predicted, because he would be at the ballpark.

Baby Connor

I am now an Aunt!! Meet Connor Michael, 8lbs, 13oz. 20.25 inches long.

It's not Friday

Im antcy like it's Friday.
I want it to be Friday so i can say "this is the last day of this crazy diet."
I want to be able to say, "Ohhhh i can sleep in tomorrow & then eat cheese again."
I'm bored at work like it's Friday.
Why oh why isn't it Friday?!

Urban Dictionary

Very interesting...definition from the website. lol.

Amy

An amazing girl who can be seen as perfect in all ways, even though she'll never admit it. She is very beautiful, but remains in denial about her looks, even though she looks amazing even at the worst of times. She has an amazing personality(which matches her body in Beauty) and is instantly appealing, giving great frist impression to others. She has lots of friends, and inspires them all with edgy and loveable spark which keeps them close for a lifetime. Not to mention it's ALWAYS interesting to talk to her with just about anything and everything! A talk with Amy can brighten anyones mood, and leave them feeling very happy (except only when they have to stop and go to bed). She has a great love of food (especially bagels) and sense of humour and often makes up her own crazy words, which only makes you love her more! A day with Amy is never wasted, and when you experience this you realise that nothing else can ever be as fulfilling. From the point you meet and fall in love with her you realise you want to be with her for the rest of your life, and not a single experience is ever regretted.

"Wow, i can't believe i'm with Amy. I must be the luckiest guy in the world"

Guy1: Damn that girl's just so amazing!
Guy2: And perfect!
Guy3: She must be an Amy.

 

 

Well, go me!

O.A.

I really need to attend an Overeaters Anonymous class.  I've been on this super strict diet and all I think about is food. What i can have when i'm done, what i can eat with cheese on it, oh butter, where i can get a lot of food for lower carbs. I am just a mess inside with eating. 
I see a therapist to deal with some childhood trauma. Maybe he can direct me in the best direction. I've read books about Intuitive Eating and portion control -it's still hard. I am praying hard that once I get myself to my goal weight - a weight i havent been since 2004, that i will be so proud of myself, i wont gorge anymore. I need support though. I know I do.

On a happier note, my daughter is potty trained except for poop. She's just not havin' it and I'm not sure what to do. The older she gets, the grosser it is! Maybe instead of a Pullup, we'll do undies all the time so she doesnt have a choice.

Poor Luke came home from school sick yesterday. I felt horrible that he threw up in the hallway. That's so traumatizing. Luckily i know all the teachers and he was well taken care of. Still sucks! 
I'm hoping we get a court paper in the mail today. I'd like to know what we're dealing with for mediation on 4/11. Most likely, Luke's mom has accused us of some nonsense to drag out the process of Luke living with us. If she fell off the earth, it would not be a bad thing. Not. At. All.

Oh, come on 16 pounds. Get off my ass so i can get off this diet!!

Teen Mom - U suck

Ok - here's the deal....girls are getting pregnant on purpose thinking they're gonna be the next Team Mom and make hundreds of thousands of dollars! We already know most girls get pregnant by accident by being stupid (pardon my truth but no condom IS stupid), or because of incredible selfishness. MTV, a channel i hate anyway, is rewarding these asshole girls with tons of money, being in the limelight, boob jobs, cars, and hey wait....where are the kids?? Does it even matter? Nope. they're on the cover of magazines, flaunting a rich life, but they really have nothing.
MTV is a sick and it's a shame they're exploiting these poor girls. It's the new form of prostitution or child slavery. These young wounded girls are thinking they have a chance to make it BIG if they just get pregnant. "Someone will see me. someone will make me famous."  It's ludicrous.
None if those girls are thinking about their own bodies or these poor babies.
And God forbid our own rich people (or those who can monetarily afford it) in the USA adopt children like this - noooooo - they go to other countries. It adds to an already monstrous problem.
MTV is doing a huge disservice to our country and I'd love to smack the crap out of the creator of the show. Stop expoiting kids and stop giving IDIOTS reality shows!!!

ok, i'm done. Thanks Julie ;)

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It's coming....

What, you ask?

Well, 1st of all I learned today that Luke's mother was served on March 4th. We filed to have full custody of Luke in February. We only have 50/50 right now. She has until March 24th to enter an opposition or to agree. Kevin and I were shocked to find out she had already been served - we were expecting an irate phone call accusing us of stealing her motherhood rights or some nonsense. Only time will tell what tactics she'll pull. I can't imagine she'll just let us have Luke. She needs to realize everyone's life would be better without her in it!

What else?
Well, weight loss. I am on my last round of HCG protocol. I have a goal to get into a bathing suit this summer and enjoy our family vacation. I'd love to see a 20-30 pounds loss. In fact, I'd be elated!  I'm staying positive on on course. It's tough being an emotional eater for sure! I made homemade salsa and it was fantastic.

Anything else??
We're closer to the birth of my 1st nephew. I have been enlisted to be Dad's backup and i am soooo excited about that. I kinda hope my brother passes out so i can assist!

My baby girl is potting training and doing super well! She pees 6-7 times a day on her own. Im so proud. She's in this horrible phase of hitting me (only ME!) and whining at me though. Ignoring is tough but it works. I think we are going to shorten her naps as well. When she sleeps more than 1.5 hours during the day, she doesnt sleep bery long at night. That doesn't make for a happy mama!  Being a parent is definitely a learning process.

Happy Friday!

Wedded bliss

So, my little sister gets married tomorrow...

It feels like just yesterday this little blonde-haired crazy child was sucking her thumb & following me all over the house. She was the cutest little girl -hair so blonde it was white. She rolled back and forth in her sleep and would wake up with huge knots in that beautiful hair -then looked like Einstein. She had these big beautiful "gun fighter eyes."  So curious.
She used to ride in the back of the tractor while i drove her around the yard. She hated veggies on her subs. "Sub, no salad." She hated the noise of dad's chainsaw. "No cuts!" She chopped a lump of hair out of her hair one day & had to wear a ponytail for months until it grew out. She dumped coffee on my head. She got me in trouble. She was my babydoll to play with and take care of & she let me. I have so many fond memories of life with my little sister. I did horrible big sister things to her I know, but my best memories are the good ones.

As we grew she took my clothes and looked up to me. My mom would always warn me to "set a good example for your sister!" I can't really say if i did or not, but I hope so. I know that she has taught me a heck of alot about life now that we are older.

I am so proud of the woman she is. She spiritual, honest, responsible and a good friend. I wish her all the luck and happiness in the world. (omg i'm crying. i gotta stop!)

I am really looking forward to getting all dressed up and getting my hair done too!

so, here's to you, Jill! I love you!

Hump day

It's hump day. I am 4 days away from my 3rd and (hopefully) final round of HCG protocol. I am dreading the low calorie eating but i'm truly yearning for the this weight loss and the comfort i feel when i'm lighter in my shoes! I cant believe how hard it has been to get weight off, now that i'm in my 30's, and after Payton was born!
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I am in my sister's wedding this Saturday and am pretty excited to get all dressed up & have my hair done. I enjoy that part of being in someone's wedding. I wish there was dancing, but we'll have a good time nonetheless. Hopefully Payton, the flower girl, doesn't rebel against walking down the aisle! I'll post pictures later.
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I'm awaiting the arrival of my first nephew. I cant wait to hold a little baby. I am really done having kids because of our life and the size of our home, cars, etc, but I cant wait to hold and snuggle and kiss a little baby again. Baby Connor. I can't wait to meet you!!
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I love that my daughter says "i love you too" now, and that she tells me she wants mustard sandwiches for lunch (kidding of course) and ketchup soup for dinner.
I love that my son (step) is going to start baseball soon & that he was so proud to score 49 points higher on his 5th grade DCAS testing yesterday, that last semester.
The kids are growing up so fast. I love the little people they are becoming. I am blessed.

Damn my foot

So, stupid me, about 3 weeks ago I attemped exercising. It wasnt just exercising, but exercising with no shoes on. Jogging nonetheless, and 3 weeks later i'm still in pain.  Why did I do that?? Yesterday i had an xray done and today I find out I have a possible heel fracture & should keep the weight off of it with crutches. Way to go, Ame! Orthopaedist appointment is Friday morning.  Next weekend I am the matron of honor in my sister's wedding and for my dress to not drag on the floor, i need a 3 inch heel. oh, fun, right??

Other stuff going on: We are waiting for Luke's mom to get the court filing for full custody. In the meantime Kevin and Luke are nervous. Hell, me too, but it doesn't directly involve me, so I am just nervous for them being nervous & I HATE confrontation!

Baseball tryouts for Luke are this weekend - yay! I'm looking forward to watching him play. I am looking forward to watching the Phillies this year too! We gotta get some Washington National tickets too, since Jayson Werth (Luke's favorite player) was traded to them.

I am due to begin round 3 of HCG protocol in a week to drop these last 20 pounds. What a challenge weight loss has been for me once I had Payton and hit the big 3-0. It has really sucked. I've become someone who can not eat sugar/carbs without feeling terrible and gaining weight. HCG protocol is tough, but it works. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can.

HCG protocol diet info

So here we go

I'm new to blogging but not new to writing. I am in the process of writing a book. I'll get to that. Lets talk current news. I am mom to 3 year old Payton and 11 year old Luke. Luke is my stepson, but will hopefully be with us full time within 6-9 months. Papers were filed 2 weeks ago. yay! His mom is, and always has been, a PIA and a horrible mother. I dont even like to classify her as a mother. She's been deemed a pathological liar and she's a poor excuse for a parent, but Luke is delightful nonetheless. He's a good boy - has some fears and sensitivity due to his situation but we pray that getting 100% custody (over the 50% we have now) will make that much better. Luke's in 5th grade, moving on to middle school next year. I'm just not ready for that transition. I've been in his life since age 4 and he's grown so much. I am thrilled that I've been able to share his life. I love him like my own.  Ain't he handsome? That's our crazy cat, Shorty Doobenstein.

So, my daughter.....oh that wonderful spirit, that lively beautiful little girl. There are no words to describe how my heart feels when she walks into the room. There really isn't. You moms know how it feels. It's a blessing and something I cherish. She's a great little girl. We just weened off of binkies on her 3rd birthday & I'm relieved it was so easy. She's starting preschool in the fall and is obsessed with Elmo, Barney, Mickey Mouse & Chuck E Cheese!

Yes, she's cute- i know :)

I'm married to a great man, Kevin. He's polar opposite of me in some things, but it works out. He's lax, I'm routined. He works shift work, I work 730-4 M-F. He is sloppy, I'm retentive. He's big and muscular, me...not so much. We do both enjoy being together, being with our kids, seeing movies, eating out & being together. I've known him for 13 years but we've been married for only 5 (on 4/8/2011).

So that's me, and these are my fantastic kids.

Family is #1. We strive to give our kids everything that we can; the things we missed out on & the things we were given that helped mold us to be who we are today. We work hard to do so and love being able to go places and have fun. We are very blessed.

Aside from that, I am Vice President on Luke's school PTA, I am heavily involved in volunteer activites, go to church whenever I can, love to sleep & love these tv shows: Everybody Loves Raymond, Frasier, Mike and Molly, Friends, House, Modern Family, King of Queens & The Cosby Show.

I am a happy person, I give my all, and my heart is always in the right place. Life is GOOD :)