It's not Friday

Im antcy like it's Friday.
I want it to be Friday so i can say "this is the last day of this crazy diet."
I want to be able to say, "Ohhhh i can sleep in tomorrow & then eat cheese again."
I'm bored at work like it's Friday.
Why oh why isn't it Friday?!

Urban Dictionary

Very interesting...definition from the website. lol.

Amy

An amazing girl who can be seen as perfect in all ways, even though she'll never admit it. She is very beautiful, but remains in denial about her looks, even though she looks amazing even at the worst of times. She has an amazing personality(which matches her body in Beauty) and is instantly appealing, giving great frist impression to others. She has lots of friends, and inspires them all with edgy and loveable spark which keeps them close for a lifetime. Not to mention it's ALWAYS interesting to talk to her with just about anything and everything! A talk with Amy can brighten anyones mood, and leave them feeling very happy (except only when they have to stop and go to bed). She has a great love of food (especially bagels) and sense of humour and often makes up her own crazy words, which only makes you love her more! A day with Amy is never wasted, and when you experience this you realise that nothing else can ever be as fulfilling. From the point you meet and fall in love with her you realise you want to be with her for the rest of your life, and not a single experience is ever regretted.

"Wow, i can't believe i'm with Amy. I must be the luckiest guy in the world"

Guy1: Damn that girl's just so amazing!
Guy2: And perfect!
Guy3: She must be an Amy.

 

 

Well, go me!

O.A.

I really need to attend an Overeaters Anonymous class.  I've been on this super strict diet and all I think about is food. What i can have when i'm done, what i can eat with cheese on it, oh butter, where i can get a lot of food for lower carbs. I am just a mess inside with eating. 
I see a therapist to deal with some childhood trauma. Maybe he can direct me in the best direction. I've read books about Intuitive Eating and portion control -it's still hard. I am praying hard that once I get myself to my goal weight - a weight i havent been since 2004, that i will be so proud of myself, i wont gorge anymore. I need support though. I know I do.

On a happier note, my daughter is potty trained except for poop. She's just not havin' it and I'm not sure what to do. The older she gets, the grosser it is! Maybe instead of a Pullup, we'll do undies all the time so she doesnt have a choice.

Poor Luke came home from school sick yesterday. I felt horrible that he threw up in the hallway. That's so traumatizing. Luckily i know all the teachers and he was well taken care of. Still sucks! 
I'm hoping we get a court paper in the mail today. I'd like to know what we're dealing with for mediation on 4/11. Most likely, Luke's mom has accused us of some nonsense to drag out the process of Luke living with us. If she fell off the earth, it would not be a bad thing. Not. At. All.

Oh, come on 16 pounds. Get off my ass so i can get off this diet!!

Teen Mom - U suck

Ok - here's the deal....girls are getting pregnant on purpose thinking they're gonna be the next Team Mom and make hundreds of thousands of dollars! We already know most girls get pregnant by accident by being stupid (pardon my truth but no condom IS stupid), or because of incredible selfishness. MTV, a channel i hate anyway, is rewarding these asshole girls with tons of money, being in the limelight, boob jobs, cars, and hey wait....where are the kids?? Does it even matter? Nope. they're on the cover of magazines, flaunting a rich life, but they really have nothing.
MTV is a sick and it's a shame they're exploiting these poor girls. It's the new form of prostitution or child slavery. These young wounded girls are thinking they have a chance to make it BIG if they just get pregnant. "Someone will see me. someone will make me famous."  It's ludicrous.
None if those girls are thinking about their own bodies or these poor babies.
And God forbid our own rich people (or those who can monetarily afford it) in the USA adopt children like this - noooooo - they go to other countries. It adds to an already monstrous problem.
MTV is doing a huge disservice to our country and I'd love to smack the crap out of the creator of the show. Stop expoiting kids and stop giving IDIOTS reality shows!!!

ok, i'm done. Thanks Julie ;)

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It's coming....

What, you ask?

Well, 1st of all I learned today that Luke's mother was served on March 4th. We filed to have full custody of Luke in February. We only have 50/50 right now. She has until March 24th to enter an opposition or to agree. Kevin and I were shocked to find out she had already been served - we were expecting an irate phone call accusing us of stealing her motherhood rights or some nonsense. Only time will tell what tactics she'll pull. I can't imagine she'll just let us have Luke. She needs to realize everyone's life would be better without her in it!

What else?
Well, weight loss. I am on my last round of HCG protocol. I have a goal to get into a bathing suit this summer and enjoy our family vacation. I'd love to see a 20-30 pounds loss. In fact, I'd be elated!  I'm staying positive on on course. It's tough being an emotional eater for sure! I made homemade salsa and it was fantastic.

Anything else??
We're closer to the birth of my 1st nephew. I have been enlisted to be Dad's backup and i am soooo excited about that. I kinda hope my brother passes out so i can assist!

My baby girl is potting training and doing super well! She pees 6-7 times a day on her own. Im so proud. She's in this horrible phase of hitting me (only ME!) and whining at me though. Ignoring is tough but it works. I think we are going to shorten her naps as well. When she sleeps more than 1.5 hours during the day, she doesnt sleep bery long at night. That doesn't make for a happy mama!  Being a parent is definitely a learning process.

Happy Friday!

Wedded bliss

So, my little sister gets married tomorrow...

It feels like just yesterday this little blonde-haired crazy child was sucking her thumb & following me all over the house. She was the cutest little girl -hair so blonde it was white. She rolled back and forth in her sleep and would wake up with huge knots in that beautiful hair -then looked like Einstein. She had these big beautiful "gun fighter eyes."  So curious.
She used to ride in the back of the tractor while i drove her around the yard. She hated veggies on her subs. "Sub, no salad." She hated the noise of dad's chainsaw. "No cuts!" She chopped a lump of hair out of her hair one day & had to wear a ponytail for months until it grew out. She dumped coffee on my head. She got me in trouble. She was my babydoll to play with and take care of & she let me. I have so many fond memories of life with my little sister. I did horrible big sister things to her I know, but my best memories are the good ones.

As we grew she took my clothes and looked up to me. My mom would always warn me to "set a good example for your sister!" I can't really say if i did or not, but I hope so. I know that she has taught me a heck of alot about life now that we are older.

I am so proud of the woman she is. She spiritual, honest, responsible and a good friend. I wish her all the luck and happiness in the world. (omg i'm crying. i gotta stop!)

I am really looking forward to getting all dressed up and getting my hair done too!

so, here's to you, Jill! I love you!

Hump day

It's hump day. I am 4 days away from my 3rd and (hopefully) final round of HCG protocol. I am dreading the low calorie eating but i'm truly yearning for the this weight loss and the comfort i feel when i'm lighter in my shoes! I cant believe how hard it has been to get weight off, now that i'm in my 30's, and after Payton was born!
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I am in my sister's wedding this Saturday and am pretty excited to get all dressed up & have my hair done. I enjoy that part of being in someone's wedding. I wish there was dancing, but we'll have a good time nonetheless. Hopefully Payton, the flower girl, doesn't rebel against walking down the aisle! I'll post pictures later.
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I'm awaiting the arrival of my first nephew. I cant wait to hold a little baby. I am really done having kids because of our life and the size of our home, cars, etc, but I cant wait to hold and snuggle and kiss a little baby again. Baby Connor. I can't wait to meet you!!
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I love that my daughter says "i love you too" now, and that she tells me she wants mustard sandwiches for lunch (kidding of course) and ketchup soup for dinner.
I love that my son (step) is going to start baseball soon & that he was so proud to score 49 points higher on his 5th grade DCAS testing yesterday, that last semester.
The kids are growing up so fast. I love the little people they are becoming. I am blessed.