I really need to attend an Overeaters Anonymous class. I've been on this super strict diet and all I think about is food. What i can have when i'm done, what i can eat with cheese on it, oh butter, where i can get a lot of food for lower carbs. I am just a mess inside with eating.
I see a therapist to deal with some childhood trauma. Maybe he can direct me in the best direction. I've read books about Intuitive Eating and portion control -it's still hard. I am praying hard that once I get myself to my goal weight - a weight i havent been since 2004, that i will be so proud of myself, i wont gorge anymore. I need support though. I know I do.
On a happier note, my daughter is potty trained except for poop. She's just not havin' it and I'm not sure what to do. The older she gets, the grosser it is! Maybe instead of a Pullup, we'll do undies all the time so she doesnt have a choice.
Poor Luke came home from school sick yesterday. I felt horrible that he threw up in the hallway. That's so traumatizing. Luckily i know all the teachers and he was well taken care of. Still sucks!
I'm hoping we get a court paper in the mail today. I'd like to know what we're dealing with for mediation on 4/11. Most likely, Luke's mom has accused us of some nonsense to drag out the process of Luke living with us. If she fell off the earth, it would not be a bad thing. Not. At. All.
Oh, come on 16 pounds. Get off my ass so i can get off this diet!!
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